So... updates?

We're now over half way through the baby growing (21 weeks)... I look like it.

ITS A GIRL.

her name is Eowyn Rose Moe.

brief scare yesterday... turned out to be blood vessels that burst in the cervix. Was told to take it easy for a day or two... so am going to work a half day today as not working for 2 days in a row is not really an option for me.

We're having a Halloween party this friday. Yes we miss you. Yes please come. Yes we're dumb for not seeing anyone. Dumb Dumb DUMB.

Finished watching Torchwood yesterday... the whole thing... including children of earth. Its brilliant, they're beautiful, I wept.... ALOT, Jack is possibly the hottest example of Choatic good out there and SOOO on my list. Hell, today he IS my list..... but MY GOD... Children of Earth was so dark... It was the first thing I thought of when I woke up. Maybe it's because I'm pregnant.... no... no.. it was just REALLY F'ed up. *brilliant*

So the Nursery is Dragon themed. read: NOT PRINCESS themed. we're going for the Maid Marion Vs. pink and annoying. Hell I might through a Bad Ass Lady Paladin in there just to even things out a bit. ... Course The paladin I play in Dnd is a Beloved of Valarian... so she rides a unicorn.. *PRETTY*. ... thats like... Bad ass girly right? Pretty magic horsey... BIG ASS SWORD!

So if anyone has any Spare Dragon stuffies or knights or unicorns or... you know... good not to evil stuff.. let me know.. its hard to find.

alright folks, I have a few evenings open coming up, any takers?

Warcraft blip:

Not fair by the way that now that I'm all preggo and cant drink my main rp character gets the same way.... so now I cant even drink virtually.... *sigh* Poor Killa/Dea.

End warcraft blip.

FRIDAY! YAY!!!!! oh how I love and adore you Friday!
PAYDAY! YAY!!!!! Oh how I love and adore you Payday!

August party! YAY!!! Oh how I've missed you....

anything else I missed?

New modem and stuff as our neigbors acrossed the ally seemed to have cut our cable lines and tries to barrel connect it back to geter with a pair of pliers and electrical tape (jerks):/. The company at first said it was on our end, so we bought new stuff and they still couldnt see it. So then they sent out a very nice tech (kinda cute btw :p) who ran all new wire and after 2 days of no webbies at home... YAY WE HAVE WEBBIES! and webbies with a better more streamline connection point... which leads to a better more streamline connection. *joy* I didnt DC!

Work still sucks. Husband still good. Looks like I'm skipping fair this season... as I'm due in early march... that would be bad. (and not very nice of Paul to say I'd pop the second I stepped on the grounds BTW!)

We're going to Starwars in concert with the PFF. I think its on October 4th. *excited* by the PFF I mean We'll be sitting next to mick and Bill, Nathan and Trips will be somewhere in the same area. ... I dont know who else is going.

Oh shit! I have to plan Vegas in september! SHIT!

So. Baby got first photos. *giggle* currently being Dubbed "gerbil". Dad said lizard.. but Gerbils are cuter.

9 more weeks until we find out the gender. Votes?

SO TIRED! UGH! cant wait for the weekend damnit.

so done with work. my job, my senior manager, all of it.

I wont be leaving however... no. I've been here for 14 months... I'll be damned if i dont make it 2 years and get that extra week of vacation.

I've been distant this week. I'm sorry. Call me this weekend Jt, I'm sorry about not returning your call.

Grandpa has congestive heart failure, Dr. white gave him 2 weeks. Currently we're trying to prep to bring him home so he can die in his own room. Its not easy, my grandparents are compulsive Hoarders, We have to make it safe.

In the process we found my great grandmother's mother ring. My grandmother's wedding set, which made my mother and I smile. Her ring is white gold, with a single small chip diamond in the middle of several flat rectangular rubies. My mothers ring is 2 Diamonds with a prodominate Ruby. I of course, have a sapphire.

We found a love letter from a woman named Jenny, addressed to my grandfather in 1943. *laugh* my grandmother's competition.

We also found day by day notes from his time in Germany during the war.

I'm not feeling well today.

So. in the past month:

Dad had emergency surgery in Tulsa OK. So mum, Laura, Alex and I drove from Sunday night to monday night to get there, and then Tuesday night to Wednesday mid day to get home. In the time I was gone my grandfather broke his knee, and was put on hospice care, my husband lost his job. I got a grand total of about 8 hours of sleep. Aunt Laura found out in tulsa that her cancer spread, I consumed more caffeine and shit food than I ever did when I was partying. and...... I learned that some people just dont get to have the honey moon periods after their wedding.

fuck you life.

fuck you.

today i weighed 210.0 my lowest point yet (without vomiting the night before) I am officially smaller that my husband. Size 16s are getting more and more comfortable. I'm smaller than I was when we met too. only 10 lbs until the big 200. I'm very excited about that. I've not seen 1?? since.... I was 17? I think. Also 4 more lbs until I have officially lost 50 total. 50. 50! Thats... nearly half way to where I want to be. I'll hit that at 200. the half way mark. the gateway to a size 14 jean...... I dont even know how to shop for a size 14 jean... do I still shop in the plus size section or can I now enter the smaller... "normal" size section.

Eric is working on drawing up a version of my next ink. I do so hope to have it soon. He's such a technical thinker.. this makes him very good at knot work. I'm excited about it. for one his anal retentive ways work in my favor....

We walked the dogs last night. poor Eric wore bad shoes and got blisters. no more walking on his chucks. Also walking to dogs with my husband is out for a couple of days.

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Date:	2009-04-24 06:28
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired

This week has been a bit unfriendly. With the pipe breakage on sunday and the stomach flue mid week, we've had a bit of a rough post wedding week. Its been a little hard to return to my before wedding eating plan. This is happening just today, though I am going to finish off the last of my all natural ginger ale. The worst thing in it though is Cane juice, and I only have 3 more bottles. As of this morning I am 13 pounds from a big break through number. I simply cannot wait to see 199 lbs on my scale.

We are going out dancing with some friends of ours tonight, it's been so long since I've been out dancing. I am kind of excited. Of course I'm also excited that I fit into this dress that I'm planning on wearing, as I've only been able to wear it once... years and years ago. I'm also admitably very nervous. Its been.... since then.... since I've talked myself into a club. so many years ago...... I was a difforent person. Eric and I will be taking our own car.. just incase I have to abandon ship.

I suppose I'm just looking for a bit of eating plan reboot support. It's rough to let my mexican food go again, but I know its better for me. We spent 50 dollars on produce last night.

Scott was finally approved for his nursing license. I'm super excited for him. Eric is going to call the guy he interviewed with at the begining of the week today. we're really hoping for this job. It will save our home.

My house is such a mess! I just had it sooo clean!!! Dang it! Its rough to keep it clean when I'm still hunting for places to put things, and Eric just finished the Hutch last night. I have to say I'm super excited about the hutch, yes its more to dust BUT I can display some of our nicer things. Our friend Jeff bought us a quaich, (quake) it is a traditonal scottish marriage cup with a handle on both sides. I've not seen it yet as it is apparently still being engraved, but it will be nice to have a place for it.

Blah, thats it I think. Happy friday!

we are wedded. We have a house full of boxes. I am excited to have new things. I want them to be where they belong. it is going to be a long week of unpacking and repacking.

on an ironic note after getting home on sunday we found a pipe broke from our water heater and flooded both the laundry and storage rooms. *sigh* yay wedding!

oh, eric had a surprise interview today, he thinks he may have gotten the job. *crosses fingers* this job will save our home.

more wedding details with pictures later

woohoo here we go... less than 24 hours!

last day of fedex office for the week!! YAY!!!!!! of course it will be the longest day of my week. but whatever. after 3 pm. I get to go home.
Tonight:
its work on/finish wedding music night.

Tomorrow is:
sleep in,
finish up the music if we haven't already.
Finish my hair piece.
Refresh the ceremony stuff, insert vows, do the formal print out.
Finish cleaning my eyebrows up,
Pack the ceremony, and reception boxes,
Pack the bridal emergency kit
Pack for the weekend
Pick up the dress and the tux.
pack the car

Friday morning:

BEA ARRIVES!
Go to the jewelry store. Get teh STOOF!
Get nails and toesies done!

theres a bunch more i promise.
I realize i dont have everything.
but why make this extremely long?

working on music for the reception. Anyone got any ideas? these ideas would be best accompanied with cds.

Thank you.

Killa

I had a strange experiance last night. One of those moments from the movies where a meaningful question is asked by the last person you'd ever expect, and the pause happens, you are filled with thought. And as the answer brushes your lips you feel that you understand more about yourself than you did 60 seconds ago. It was in fresh and easy on the way home from Ci Ci's pizza. I ran into someone.... I had not seen in many years. She was part of the circle I used to associate myself with.... in another life.

"you kind of up and disapeared"
"on purpose mostly"
"did you find what you were looking for?"
"..... you know... I think i did."

http://uncyclopedia.wikia.com/wiki/Gay_Pirates

for Corey

Date:	2009-02-18 06:53
Subject:	Wedding braaaaaiiinnnn
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm

Today I feel pretty... pretty okay. After a 2 day long stint of vomiting and severe headaches I'm on the up swing, with only a minor head pain this morning. Yesterday, though I did not feel well at all i choose to do something productive with my home.

Eric and I have both been crazy person stressed, and our nightmare of a home showed it. So yesterday I cleaned until Eric got home, and then pulled him on the train and we got some much needed tasks done including: sorting through and orginizing the laundry room, kitchen, and linen closet. Making our final to do list for the wedding, finishing up the invites which are going to the post office today thanks to Eric stopping by there. I feel productive, this makes me feel so much better mentally.

This past weekend I found wedding shoes, choose bridesmaid gifts, ordered our toasting glasses, and got both my father and little brother fit for tuxs. Eric's mom, Diane, also was kind enough to buy me a dress for the rehearsal dinner. not that I didnt own plenty of dresses, but it was her birthday gift to me, and well... who doesn't need new dresses? It's very cute and very me.

So, something old, something new, something borrowed, and something blue. I need to talk to Bea. The pretty jewelry goddess. All of my stuff is fun funky and big, maybe I can borrow something from her? I also need a new prettier nose ring. Something with some bling. But.. not too much bling?

OH!! THE LAWSUIT IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!

Looks like we came out of it with 600ish on top of expenses. This is bueno! this means that maybe, just maybe.... we can afford a little honey moon... a little tiny one?

So We got home last night. I was, as heavily intoxicated as everyone remembers. We're dog sitting our friend's dog until Tuesday. we looked at the counter. bloody fur..... Rabid hunt for cats. Tasha, check, Zeke... Zeke...... Kitchen window. Zeke. 24 hour vet hospital is right across the street. We have to drop him off so they can mend him. 4 wounds, a hundred or so stitches, 2 drains, 1 cone. Zeke is now on our bathroom floor drugged up pretty hard. He's not out of the wood yet though, One large one on his side went through fat and tissue, and perhaps (we're praying not) punctured his abdomen. He has to go back in to our normal vet tomorrow. Thank the gods for Care Card. So far, we're over $700 dollars.

I believe it was a dominance issue.... I dont blame Marty, Aria has never had a problem when she's been over. No one could have predicted this. So now.... we wait.

Date:	2008-12-31 06:35
Subject:	New Years Evil
Security:	Public
Mood:	creative

So after a 2 day stint of having plastic in my eye and staying home. I'm back at work. my eye is still a little red and a little achey, but its repairing very fast and very well. We're having a new years party of course, so if anyone would like to show thier butts up. 4802176145. Or... just show your butt up. I got my feathers in!! I'm so excited.

Wedding to do list:

Pick up dress DONE
Print invites DONE
Make Tossing Thingy DONE! PRETTY!
Receive and Check Parasols. Done.... need to order 2 more in black as red was WAY TO RED.
Center Pieces nearly complete!
Corsages ect. Half way finished!
Get Eric's ring engraved.... Not done... (hey Ben?)
Learn to waltz. Working on it!
Buy corset DONE!
Get dress Altered Waiting until Late January (I'm short!)
Buy shoes Not done!
Decide on hair.... OH GOD CANT!
Write Ceremony DONE! (Hey Ben? I have a request.)
Write Vows DONE! (If we can find where we put them......)
Have Lunch/Coffee with Dennis and Bonnie Not done....
Choose naughty underthings to wear under dress cuz i can..... Not done.
Get Eric to pick a song for he and Diane... Not done.
Print out direction Map and Reception card. Not done!
Buy flower girl Basket.... not done.
Finalize Registry.... not done!
Finalize Guest list... DONE!
Get Addresses.... not done! EEP!

(hey Ben.... this is really handy having you on LJ. faeofthefire@yahoo.com please e-mail me you and emily's formal names and addresses please please. thanks!)

Yay for having the big stuff done early so i can focus on the more fun stuff now. I of course am enjoying making most of it myself.

"When you're standing in deep water,
and you're bailing yourself out with a straw.
When you're standing in deep water,
and you wake up making love to a wall.
It's these little times that help to remind,
it's nothing without love."
- Jewel

Eric was laid off yesterday. I cannot begin to describe..... the fear, the panic, the anything.

Our house is now in danger as is our cars, our lights, our home.... I cannot support us by even half. I only bring in half of what he did.

He's hurting so baddly right now... I can not stand it... I'm sick to my stomach... I'm sick to my soul. *sigh*

"Soaking up is what happens after saddle backing"

and and... "they're dying, which is some comfort."

http://www.hulu.com/watch/43974/the-colbert-report-proposition-8-protests---dan-savage#s-p1-st-i1